Sunday, November 20, 2005

personal

Nunca había estado tan lejos de mi casa, de mi familia, de mis amigos... despues de un año fuera por fin me esta cayendo el peso de la distancia / la frontera me grita por las noches antes de dormir: me llama, me dice que vuelva y me hace preguntarme - ¿Qué diablos hago aquí? y pronto recuerdo la voz de mi profesora de Literatura en la Universidad, me dijo: ¨nadie es profeta en su tierra¨. Lo que hago ahora es un necesario sacrificio para poder vivir mi sueño, si quiero que mi libro sea publicado y le pueda llegar a más lectores de lo que me puedo imaginar en diferentes partes del mundo debo estar aquí aunque extrañe mi hogar con fuerza. Despues podré voltear atras y sonreirle a la vida por el paquete de experiencias brindadas (con todo y pilas).
Siempre escribo ficción, pero hoy no lo pude evitar, estaba vulnerable, sentí escribir algo personal.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Good riddance

He e-mailed her that song from Green Day. After everything was said and done/ for an instant he seriously thought of the whole concept of setteling down and building a family... you know?! the kind of shit adults do at a certain age; but he was dead wrong, his time was not up yet; //she wasn`t the one// single life is complicated but staying with someone for the rest of your life is a big decision -- some people think that you know what your mate is all about and what goes on in someone`s head, but, the mind has many layers and is very tricky, no one knows 100% what goes on in others` peoples heads^ the thinest fiber of brain cells can fuck you over sometimes / insecurities / baggage / issues with yourself and others / that all builds up and creates drama.
So in the end it`s like the song says:
¨another turning point a fork stuck in the road / time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go / so make the best of this time and don`t ask why / it`s not a question but a lesson learned in time... it`s something unpredictable but in the end is right, i hope you had the time of your life¨ -Green Day.

The memories will always stay there, but, he lives happier now... Paulo.